Miracles
3.25.2020
I’m asking for a miracle but I’m getting miracles. Yesterday was a big, big day and I’m still feeling great. Actually great! Well, I’m feeling great with the perspective of just having chemo. I can still feel the effects simmering beneath the surface but they are not overtaking me. I have energy - that’s from the steroids they gave me but I’ll take it. Also, I’m happy! That counts for something. And, while I can tell my digestive system is taking a hit I’m just kind of ignoring it. I’d call that a miracle!
Feeling good is a gift. But, let’s not let this distract from the miracle I’m asking for. To be sure, if you ask me what I want or what to pray for I don’t hesitate, “A Miracle.” It has occurred to me that maybe I need to be a little more specific. The big miracle I’m asking for is to be cancer-free forever. Or, perfectly healed and whole - however you want to think about it. I struggle with this miracle request quite a bit because:
That’s a pretty big request. Am I really worthy to ask such a thing?
My miracle could fit in with a radiant, beautiful life here on Earth but I could also get my request just fine if I were dead. Tricky.
I’m still asking. Then, I am going to give praise and revel in every single little miracle that comes my way on this adventure. I know there will be more.