Happy Again
9.8.2021
In my natural state, I am smiling. I smile when I walk, smile when I talk and smile when I’m emailing someone I like. I wasn’t so smiley for a few days. Radiation was easy. Well, the process was easy. It wasn’t perfect, though. Cancer treatment never is.
My regular cancer medication has me operating with very little appetite. My radiation was straightforward, directed to the first lumbar of my spine. The only thing in the way? My belly. Running a little radiation through my guts dropped my appetite right down to nothing. Thank God for my amazing body! I’m already regaining my appetite. I want to eat. Every food leaves me feeling sick but I’m progressing just the same.
Paul is unbelievably good to me. He patiently tells me what I need to hear. It won’t be like this forever. He selflessly adapts when my skin crawls with pain. I’m sorry, I didn’t know. He echoes back to me what I know to be true. Tomorrow will be better. And it is! Here we are. Another tomorrow has arrived and it is better. It’s better than yesterday and tomorrow will be even more.
Now, I’m smiling. I’m tending the garden and children. I am returning to myself. I’m happy again.