Lovely Life
9.1.2021
Things have been moving and shaking at our house. We are cleaning and sorting, fixing and soon (I hope) painting. Our load has been a bit too heavy for years. We’re making way for positive new energy, new life, and fresh new ways.
The last week has been a lot. I had a biopsy taken from my neck, drained fluid from around my lung, met my new radiation oncologist and scanned and planned for radiation. That was all before noon on Friday! Since then, I had a COVID booster, an echocardiogram of my heart and finished more than half my course of radiation. Things are moving and shaking!
Radiation started on Monday. It. Is. So. Easy. The entire universe seems to be conspiring to make it so. It is only about ten minutes from our house to the cancer center but this week it seems remarkably faster. Somehow, day after day, all the stoplights are green. Sunshine and music streaming, I cruise downtown with a smile on my face. When I arrive, everything is easy. Parking? Reserved. Waiting room? Empty. People? Super nice and always ready. It feels as if finally, finally things are turning around for me. If green lights, sunshine and nice people don’t mean my cancer is on the run, what could? (Wink.)
Even with so much ease this week, I’m feeling a little wilted. Side effects and the uncertainty of it all sometimes gets to me. At about 4:00 today I decided I’m not doing anything I don’t want to do for the rest of the day. Maybe, for the rest of the week. Now, I’m doing entirely as I please. It’s good. I cut myself some fresh zinnias. I placed them at my bedside. As I drift off to sleep tonight, I’ll let go of my heavy load. I’ll fill myself with positive energy. I’ll look at my fresh, beautiful flowers and sleep, dreaming of my lovely life.