Dreams Come True

3.16.20

We decided today that I will begin chemotherapy next week. At this time of closures and social distancing we are preparing to hit my cancer and my immune system hard. Scary times.

Still, in the midst of all this uncertainty and fear my dreams are coming true. I've been struggling with the reality of my dream garden. Just last summer I received it quite unexpectedly. The huge Ash tree in our backyard was condemned and came down. Suddenly, there was sun in abundance but I could not maximize its benefit because of cancer. I'm faced with the same gardening reality for this summer. But all this isolation, this COVID-19 has created something I've always dreamed of. It started today. It is here. It is now. It is peaceful and beautiful and wonderful. We are all here at home together. Paul is working at his newly built desk in the front porch office. Ben, Gilbert, Jackson and I are gathered around the dining room table. Each child is doing his own work peacefully with me on hand to assist and encourage. Honestly, our life has never been so peaceful as it is this morning. Lessons have never gone so well. We are grounded and nurturing one another. We'll have lunch with Paul. We hug, we smile. There are no commute times. This is bliss. I'm living my dream.